Regressing Progression

by ~FantasieAutor

My body aches with the need to feel your touch. Just the thought of it right now is making me sweat. Your kisses, your hugs, your smile; everything about you makes me want you even more. I can't breathe right when you're not around. My heart beat is more than slightly irregular when I can't see you, can't hear you. I can't think, can't even move if I know I'm not going to see you for more than a few hours.

If you were a banana, I'd be a starving gorilla.

I can still taste you on my lips from our last kiss. If I smell the sheets, your sweat fills my senses and sends me spiraling back into the blissful union from the night before. Your tshirt that I am wearing still holds the smell of your deodorant. It is like a balm to my aching heart while you are away. Sometimes I wonder if I should sleep all day so I can spend every minute possible with you when you come home from work. So I can stay up all night and watch you as you sleep.

Someone to cling to means never having to say 'Prozac'.

I love the feeling of safety when you wrap your arms around me. The way my arms don't fully reach around your muscular chest always gets my heart rate up. I love the feel of your hand running through my hair as you brush it away from my face right before you bless me with the gift of one of your kisses. You keep me alive, sane. I've never felt so wonderful.

Who needs a companion when guns are so willing?

You've destroyed so much. My heart is now in so many pieces I no longer recognize it. My eyes won't stop leaking tears, even when I am not actively crying. The ache I once felt for your touch has been replaced by a need to watch you suffer the way you have made me suffer. You claim that you are in as much pain as I am? You don't know pain. You have separated my soul from my body. Torn out what sanity was left and tossed it aside. You claim to understand? Let my friend the bullet make sure you truly see.

Skyscrapers were meant for swan dives.

Look what you've made me do. You're gone, forever. They're looking for me. I can hear the sirens, though from up here everything is so muted. All I can hear are the voices, the anger and the pain all raging inside of me. I didn't want to do it. Didn't want it to end this way. You told me you would never leave me. You claimed we were soul-mates. And yet you shattered my heart with five words: I can't do this anymore. Insane, you called me. Unstable. Obsessive. What right did you have saying such things about me? Aren't you the one who told me the world itself could never part us? Didn't you swear your unwavering devotion? Undying love? So much for that, right?

The sirens are getting closer. I should end this now, bring us back together. I am sure you have seen the error in your ways. You'll be happy to see me again, I know it. We can spend all the time in the world together now. No silly interruptions, like work or sleep. We'll be together forever, my love. As soon as I become more closely acquainted with the world moving so quickly to meet me, we will never be separated ag-....